Day 17, Down 15 pounds... what?!

So between yesterday and today I lost 5 pounds. I... am sort of at a loss of words. I think I may have been looking at "150" as if it were "155".. whoops!

So no plateau? That's great news! Furthermore I can say I have reached the number I wanted to reach in 21 days and I still have 4 days to spare. I am sort of thinking some of this is water weight and I will gain it back. But hopefully not. I am going to drink my 80 ounces of water and Beyond Tangy Tangerine today and hopefully the scale won't magically read 155 again tomorrow.

My plateau breaker of a steak and an apple may have worked then.

I had 4.5 ounces though, and my apple turned into  an apple AND an orange. Because I knew if I didn't have just a little more of something before bed I would be weak in the morning.

My breakfast was wonderful, two egg whites and about an ounce of diced steak with spinach was yummy yummy. Filled me up good even though it was served on a tiny saucer.

For lunch I'll have some Wedding soup, I saw it on an asap website: EFENTERPRISES

I think I'll make it like this:

cook the lean ground beef, drain the fat.
boil water and add beef stock concentrate
add spinach, add 3 oz. beef, EAT!
Probably an orange on the side too.

Honestly I'm not sure if that is how its made but it looks like it from the picture and that sounds good even if its not wedding soup.
 
Then for dinner I'll have a nice salad with chicken and pear.

Measured myself today, 24" off my whole body. I am starting to feel like I was prepregnancy!

Plateau?

I'm not sure if I've hit a plateau or not. I am still losing, but it seems like it may be incremental (.5), instead of the "pound a day" I was having before. I have to admit this is a bit disappointing. I was hoping I'd be around 21 pounds lighter at the end of my 3 weeks. For today, Day 12, I weighed in 156 from 165. So that's 9 pounds! Woohoo.

I have been making food I can't eat: brownies, pasta, pancakes. I am baking them for my family, of course. But why even tempt myself? I think I am trying to sabotage myself by providing foods I want to eat but am not supposed to. And saying no to them is empowering, but I felt my strength waning yesterday and fled for some sweet-eze to help me fight the craving. I want to drink Zevia, but I only have had 2 so far and I know that the chemicals will also stop my weight loss process, so I'm avoiding them as best I can.

Not sure why, but I think this might be a coffee diet for me. I am drinking so much of it (3 cups a day). I know that part of getting off my semi plateau is to drink more water. I can't help but think the coffee is working against me. I also don't want my weight loss to be only water loss. That would be horrible! So: more water, more water, more water!

My "Notice Number" - Losing Weight But No One Notices

There is something to be said about losing weight and having it come full circle. My partner says he notices, but I've also told him, so that's to be expected. But what about when you lose weight and no on notices? I suppose I'm still only 5% down in weight, so that's not going to be an extreme change.

Even the slight Japanese woman who works across my mother on the weekends was sure to notice I thought. She's the only one I know gutsy enough to say when I'm getting smaller or bigger. Was there a special "notice number" where all my hard work would go recognized?

But there was nothing! When I got home I looked in the mirror. I guess I was wearing like 3 layers of clothing, but still to ME I looked smaller. So what's the deal, why do I need to have outside acknowledgement?The weight loss won't be any more real because someone tells me "good job." Maybe I'm better suited for Weight Watchers?

When I really think about it, I am not losing weight for them. I am doing it for me. And this morning I actually looked cute coming out of bed with my hair messed up, no bra and mascara residue smudged on my eyelids.

I am very aware that this is the half-way point. I figured there would be something my mind would invent to stall me. I am going to look at it objectively, though and move forward. I know that people don't like to talk about weight because its a sensitive subject. I know they can tell something is different but maybe not that I lost weight, I just look better for some reason. And if they do decide to "bring it up" I will take my opportunity to disclose my success. I guess this is blog is my main motivator. If others are thinking about doing ASAP or an other weight loss journey, it is very helpful to have a place to talk about it, diary/journal/blog.