I try to imagine that at this point I've taken 10 STICKS OF BUTTER off my entire body. My energy level has been skyrocketing lately. I am living with my parents right now to save money for a house and downstairs is "theirs" and upstairs is "mine"... well I cleaned both of those in one day because I have so much energy!
It reminds me of when I used to fast after my monthly cycle (tmi?) I would go on a fast for a week maybe everyother month because I wanted to regulate myself back to making good food choices. For some reason not eating was my only way to keep my cravings in check. Its strange but not eating is easier than this diet. I think it would be easier to just not eat than to crave food and constantly tell yourself, no... you can't have that, you have to have this. Everytime I make the right choice, though, I feel very empowered to keep going. That is why I've made it this far.
I'm not sure if I love or hate meal time at this point. I love that the food gives me energy, but I don't feel all that much satisfaction from eating bitter greens! I think I will stop buying them after I lick off that package of mix baby greens. Sorry dandylion, I don't like you.
So how am I with hunger? I'm not craving food physically, but I am psychologically. And due to my stringent menu I'm actually eating foods I thought I didn't like: tomatoes. Their flavor bursted into something very enjoyable yesterday for lunch. I had no idea it could taste so great.
Here is my routine thus far. As you can see I have mostly avoided the starches except for every other day because I noticed I was too tired going without bread and without breakfast:
(Day 1 of 2)
Breakfast: 1 protein, 1 veg, coffee/tea
Lunch: 1 protein, 1 veg, 1 fruit
Dinner: 2 veg (salad, no meat)
Dessert: 1 fruit
(Day 2 of 2)
Breakfast: coffee/tea
Lunch: 1 protein, 1 veg, 1 GF bread (under 200 cals)
Dinner: 1 protein, 2 veg (salad, with meat)
Dessert: 1 fruit
Here are some sample menus for the past couple of days for me:
(Day 1 of 2)
Breakfast: 1 protein, 1 veg, coffee/tea: 2 eggs with half a bell pepper, no butter but add season-all salt, pepper, and use smart balance with omega-3 non-stick spray (do not have eggs be too crispy, burnt food is cancerous!) French Vanilla Coffee with vanilla creme stevia sweet drops made of LEAF EXTRACT (not crystalline packets, those are not goooood, if you can drink regular coffee try to drink that instead of flavored, I just can't stomach the regular coffee! Wish I could!)
Lunch: 1 protein, 1 veg, 1 fruit: (FROM BURGER KING): grilled chicken sandwich "low carb", no mayo, no pickles, ADD mustard, (comes in a plastic container with tomatoes, lettuce) Its a good size breast so will fill you up for awhile, but needs something else so I also had a granny smith apple (less sugar and I LOVE sour).
Dinner: 2 veg (salad, no meat): Spinach, mix greens, radish slices (2 whole radishes), baby carrots (6), sundried tomatoes (6 julienne cut), zuchinni (1/4), lemon juice and apple cider vinegar as dressing and salt/pepper to taste.
Dessert: 1 fruit : naval orange
(Day 2 of 2)
Breakfast: coffee/tea: french vanilla Coffee with vanilla creme stevia sweet drop
Lunch: 1/2 protein, 1 veg, 1 GF bread (under 200 cals): 1.5 oz. ground turkey with Himalayan pink salt and black pepper (*I cook a whole pound at once and keep some leftover in the fridge for adding to salad or for breakfast scramble in place of an egg), 1 GF pizza crust by Udi's (very thin crust, 190 cals for half CUT IT IN HALF AND ONLY USE HALF A CRUST!) I cooked it all once and could NOT leave that second half alone. So only cook half and you'll be okay. Top crust with tomato paste, spinach, mushrooms, ground turkey, cook at 375 for 7-10 minutes.
Dinner: 1/2 protein, 2 veg (salad, with meat): 1.5 oz ground turkey OR chicken slices, Spinach, mix greens, radish slices (2 whole radishes), baby carrots (6),
sundried tomatoes (6 julienne cut), zuchinni (1/4), lemon juice and
apple cider vinegar as dressing and salt/pepper to taste.
Dessert: 1 fruit: handful of strawberries.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Day 4 of As Slim as Possible Gluten Free
You may have seen by my other blogs that I am HULAHOOPER! Hooray. I have lost weight with hula hooping twice before. Once when I first started in college, about 15 pounds because I was obsessed with it. This is the experience I like to give to others when I make hoops. My weight became around 140 as a base weight. I kept that weight with little to no effort. Then when I had my first daughter I blossomed to 180. With a lot of breastfeeding, walking, hula hooping, and yo yo diets, I managed to get down to 150 in 18 months, only to get back up to 192 with my second pregnancy (175 after birth).
Now other mom's out there know the battle, I'm sure. Maybe you love being pregnant like I did or maybe it was utter torture. But for me, food was my calling. I swear everything I ate just transformed into fat and decided to stick around.
However I didn't let myself get carried away with my second pregnancy as I did with my first (in which I ate ice cream - all the time). And yet I still packed on the pounds. Something was terrorizing me from the inside out. After my second child was born I dropped 10 pounds with Brazil Butt Lift (super fun dancing videos), stopping the gluten intake, and taking more vitamins/minerals. However now I'm stuck at 165. Still "Obese" according to my BMI, which seems obsurd.
I really don't want to be a diabetic. I had gestational diabetes with my second pregnancy, or at least I found out I MIGHT be at the very end, but I was in full-blown denial and wouldn't let them test me again by a 4 hours starving/sugar overload test. That did NOT seem healthy! So I just avoided sugars, but I still felt the highs and lows of the sugar radically effecting me- so let's just assume I did have it.
Today I am 165, 5'4" - Overall not the best looking stomach in the world. It looks like a deflated baloon, to be honest, ripples and all. And I'm just tired of not feeling sexy when I dance. I don't even need to be thin, I never have been and its not really me. 135. That's my goal maintaining weight. I've never been under 140 in my adult life. I have a hefty frame - I think. I really don't know because I've never been under 140. If I could get there, I'd be fid as a fiddle. I want to teach hula hooping but being "obese" is not helping me with the confidence portion. I want to shine like I once was. I know there are fat bubbly confident people out there, but that's not me. In this body I feel tired, large, and like I'm not making the best of my life.
I did get from 165 to 135 once before in 30 days. What did I do? I was 20 and just started birth control and my body immediately lost its appetite. I thought maybe it was depression. I felt sad. Food couldn't make me feel better, it actually made me feel worse. I would look at the pantry, and just say "no..." and go back upstairs and feel sad. I wrote a lot of poetry and music. How very angsty. But then I had a lot of time on my hands because I wasn't spending it preparing meals for myself. It was so WEIRD. All my life I've loved food, so it was strange to finally lose my love for it. Its almost as if my hormones became regulated and I realized that my excess body fat was not supposed to be there, and the hunger just went away for awhile. THANK YOU HYPOTHALAMUS. I ate meals, but only half. Everything, only half. And only 3 meals a day, no snacks. But I did eat any type of food I wanted. Needless to say, the 30 pound loss in a month made me so ecstatic that I found my happiness again and started to eat again. Gaining back about 5 pounds in 3 weeks. And it stayed there for years.
But I did not supplement when I did this, which is why I think this method was unhealthy - despite its great results. I am a mother now and want to be healthy and not overload my system with toxins.
Day 1: 165
Day 2: 165
Day 3: 164
Day 4: 163
I am following Dr Wallach's (Dead Doctor's Don't Lie) advice of going gluten free. However he also backs the use of this product ASAP, which allows "breads" for a portion of the meals. I will detail any new recipes I have for gluten free ASAP in the near future.
Right now my sister needs some help buying a car. Isn't it great how you can see yourself in your siblings as they go through their life? Family is great! (My Beyond Tangy Tangerine must be kicking in because I'm feeling super energized! Wayyyy different than my angsty weight loss where I just lied around like a dying sloth!)
Now other mom's out there know the battle, I'm sure. Maybe you love being pregnant like I did or maybe it was utter torture. But for me, food was my calling. I swear everything I ate just transformed into fat and decided to stick around.
However I didn't let myself get carried away with my second pregnancy as I did with my first (in which I ate ice cream - all the time). And yet I still packed on the pounds. Something was terrorizing me from the inside out. After my second child was born I dropped 10 pounds with Brazil Butt Lift (super fun dancing videos), stopping the gluten intake, and taking more vitamins/minerals. However now I'm stuck at 165. Still "Obese" according to my BMI, which seems obsurd.
I really don't want to be a diabetic. I had gestational diabetes with my second pregnancy, or at least I found out I MIGHT be at the very end, but I was in full-blown denial and wouldn't let them test me again by a 4 hours starving/sugar overload test. That did NOT seem healthy! So I just avoided sugars, but I still felt the highs and lows of the sugar radically effecting me- so let's just assume I did have it.
Today I am 165, 5'4" - Overall not the best looking stomach in the world. It looks like a deflated baloon, to be honest, ripples and all. And I'm just tired of not feeling sexy when I dance. I don't even need to be thin, I never have been and its not really me. 135. That's my goal maintaining weight. I've never been under 140 in my adult life. I have a hefty frame - I think. I really don't know because I've never been under 140. If I could get there, I'd be fid as a fiddle. I want to teach hula hooping but being "obese" is not helping me with the confidence portion. I want to shine like I once was. I know there are fat bubbly confident people out there, but that's not me. In this body I feel tired, large, and like I'm not making the best of my life.
I did get from 165 to 135 once before in 30 days. What did I do? I was 20 and just started birth control and my body immediately lost its appetite. I thought maybe it was depression. I felt sad. Food couldn't make me feel better, it actually made me feel worse. I would look at the pantry, and just say "no..." and go back upstairs and feel sad. I wrote a lot of poetry and music. How very angsty. But then I had a lot of time on my hands because I wasn't spending it preparing meals for myself. It was so WEIRD. All my life I've loved food, so it was strange to finally lose my love for it. Its almost as if my hormones became regulated and I realized that my excess body fat was not supposed to be there, and the hunger just went away for awhile. THANK YOU HYPOTHALAMUS. I ate meals, but only half. Everything, only half. And only 3 meals a day, no snacks. But I did eat any type of food I wanted. Needless to say, the 30 pound loss in a month made me so ecstatic that I found my happiness again and started to eat again. Gaining back about 5 pounds in 3 weeks. And it stayed there for years.
But I did not supplement when I did this, which is why I think this method was unhealthy - despite its great results. I am a mother now and want to be healthy and not overload my system with toxins.
Day 1: 165
Day 2: 165
Day 3: 164
Day 4: 163
I am following Dr Wallach's (Dead Doctor's Don't Lie) advice of going gluten free. However he also backs the use of this product ASAP, which allows "breads" for a portion of the meals. I will detail any new recipes I have for gluten free ASAP in the near future.
Right now my sister needs some help buying a car. Isn't it great how you can see yourself in your siblings as they go through their life? Family is great! (My Beyond Tangy Tangerine must be kicking in because I'm feeling super energized! Wayyyy different than my angsty weight loss where I just lied around like a dying sloth!)
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